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Depression is so weird

For the average person, the first thing that comes to mind when asked to visualize depression might be someone sitting alone and crying to themselves. That could be true for a lot of depressed cases, but I earnestly believe that you could be depressed and not cry once. You can be depressed and never have that persistent desire to feel sad.

You just make yourself feel negative, all the time, for no reason; in all kinds of different ways. It changes everything about yourself. Depression, untreated, can lead you to a path that changes your personality, looks, friends, everything.

It’s just so strange to know how diverse the spectrum is and how it affects each individual differently. How depression not only makes you sad, but forces you to do things that will eventually make you miserable. Usually, most of us lose interest in things that’ll put us in higher spirits. Instinctively most want to please the inner child and always choose to do what makes it happiest; and depression does this weird thing to put that inner child on mute.

Stranger still, you can’t seem to turn off depression or force another individual to have an “a-ha” moment. Sadness and feeling miserable become some kind of comfortable save zone, and why not? You get to stay home for as long as functional society will allow with work, bills, and groceries. But, God forbid you exert any effort – depression says hells no; it don’t matter anyway.

The only way to start getting out of depression is to shift your way of thinking. That’s an easier said than done statement, but that’s what happens. Depression has to be due to the environment you’re in; or rather your own individual perception of how things are.

Perception is often reality. 

So, there has to be this shift in perception. That’s my own opinion, and this is my blog so I get to say what I wanna say. LOL! But for real, try changing your perception to a more positive one. Then, here’s a hard one, try making sure you only say positive things, and talking about them.

But, I’m actually reaching out of the depths of depression myself. This moment of light was my inspiration to write this. I’m pretty happy in this moment. Might be from all the sun I’ve been getting lately. Seems like the more people like myself spend inside a building and avoid the sun, the more we’re recoiled in to a depressed lifestyle.

I know I’ve been depressed for a while, but the one thing that gets me is this question; and I have a hard time answering it.

What do you like to do for fun?

For a long time now, I’ve struggled and searched to find that perfect answer. You know, that one thing you can do or visit that you know will thrill you each and every time. And, I’ve got me an answer now.

I like to go to the beach. I love the smell of the sunscreen and the salty warm air. I like that there’s so many people, but it’s always quiet. I appreciate the fact that I can be introverted at a crowded beach. Playing in the warm water is so much fun with Mark, and I always feel safe there.

So, fellow members at the depressed club… I ask you, what’s the one thing that you can always do and it always makes you happy.

Much love,

Alex

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1 thought on “Depression is so weird”

  1. I do think what you said about positive thinking is true. I heard a saying recently “be careful what you say, YOU are listening”. For example when you tell yourself I’m not worth anything, I’m fat, I’m ugly, I don’t have any friends or whatever your subconscious hears it and believes it. If you speak positively your subconscious hears that too.

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